Sunday, November 01, 2009

Crete - Day 1

This time Crete feels like a totally unique experience. I am here for research. NOT for leisure, NOT for pleasure. I underline this as I need to remind myself what the reason of this visitation is ... and GET back to work.

I have been on Crete before; in fact, at least ten times, but has always been during the Summer months. In the Winter, when the tourists rarely visit, Crete takes a sad, melancholic face and the island is dressed in gray. Loneliness and missing Martin, in my case, makes it worse. Everything here makes me want to talk about it and describe what I see. I keep taking notes, sketching things that impress me, amuse me or even scare me; I also keep a diary.

I only arrived here this noon, after landing during a terrible rainstorm. Flying through the storm was not great. At some point I thought that the aeroplane might crash on the Aegean sea. Oh, look! The isles in the midst of the Great Green! Ivory white and greyish-brownish, rocky islands, tortured by the sea waves. So wild but beautiful! I spotted one or two of them behind the clouds; nevertheless, due to the terrifying landing, my mind would not think of all-things Aegean but off all-things Egyptian 'Fields of Eternity'.

I did not need to collect my luggage. My backpack is my only luggage. When I go abroad for research, I never take any luggage with me, other than my hand luggage of course. It is not worth it. When I went to Egypt I did exactly the same. A school backpack full of clothes was good enough to keep me going for at least ten days. In the end, I got rid of most of them, giving them to a beggar begging outside Ramses train station. Minimalism is part of being me, I suppose. Some people do not want to understand it. That will never change, no matter the circumstances and no matter where I go. My limited clothes are good enough for both Summer and Winter. It's the inside that counts, not the wrapping paper.

The taxi driver was chatty. He did take me to the Taverna, but he asked way too many questions during the 15 minute drive. I gave him the answers he wanted to hear, making up a story from scratch, I never told him what I am really doing here.

On the way to the accommodation, of course, I had to speak Greek. I noticed that my accent is now slightly altered -and I cannot help it. It is not Englishised. It's just different to what it was before. It is milder; not that Athenian-Corinthian type of accent that I used to have while stopping in Greece. Do not ask me why please. I do not know the answer myself. The only thing that I can tell you with certainty is that in the last -at least- four years out of five that I have spent in the UK, I think in English and yes, I even dream in English. That is not completely bizarre. Martin says that he sometimes dreams in Greek, probably because we speak Greek at home.

Jumping from one paragraph to another is not going to help me improve my English language skills, but at least it will make me say what I want to say. I apologise for the bad spelling or syntax. I keep encouraging myself to write in plain English, even though I make mistakes. It can only do me good. Writing in a foreign language is not always the easiest thing in the world, and my new British surname does not automatically make my speech and writing reach perfection. At least I am trying. Innovation is not at all about the destination; it is all about the trip.

I was left to wonder at Villa Ariadne's gardens. The beauty of these gardens is unique. The apple and pomegranate trees where full of red fruit, its vivid colour popping out among the rich green foliage; flowers were planted in baskets and pots; even the landscape around the villa gives you that sort of feeling that the earth is full of hidden treasures. It was then when I started thinking of the spirits of Evans, Pendlebury, Money-koutsi (please allow me the Greekiness of her surname). I felt them wondering around and looking at me, placing way too many expectations upon my face. I lowered my head. By the time I opened the printed map in order to find my way to the Taverna, here he comes, the Knossos curator, to welcome me. 'Mrs Bealby', he shouted! (I still cannot get used to my British surname, especially in Greece). 'Welcome to the 'Taverna'. In English.

He showed me around. The Taverna is a beautiful place. All in all five rooms cover the needs of the visitors-members of the British School. Showers and toilets are for public use. Same with the kitchen, breakfast and dinner room. I am stopping in room five. The curator said that two of the rooms are used by semi-permanent visitors who study Knossos archaeology. They are now here and I am looking forward to meeting them tomorrow. A bit of socialising with similarly-minded peers will do me good.

I was impressed with the library. I unlocked and opened the door to find out that there is a hidden treasure of books and maps in there. Some of them are on Aegean-Egyptian interactions. 'Hmm', I said. 'I have to get back to them tomorrow'. Interesting. The dust creates a kind of ceremonial atmosphere every time I attempt to take a book out the shelves.

However, I was tired. My lack of concentration on the book that I had started reading annoyed me massively. Therefore I went back to the room. I was also starving. I had barely eaten all day, so I went out to find the 'last' open tavern of the season, at the village of Knossos. That was the one opposite the car park of the Knossos palace.

In the local tavern, two men were watching football on the box (Bolognia versus a Greek teem). The restaurant door was shut, but I was so desperate for a bit of food that I had to knock. The décor consisted of replicas of archaeology in order to attract the tourists. There was also a sign on the wall. NO SMOKING. The owner of the tavern was smoking like a chimney. They asked me what I want and they said that they only have mussaka. 'Mussaka would do', I said. The man served it to me, with some slices of bread to go with it. It was delicious, but I ate it all in minutes, because I felt uncomfortable and vulnerable. One of the men was looking at my wedding ring. I was asked about what I was doing there. I made up another story. I hate telling people what I am doing for living (if one could classify studying as a what-ya-doing-for-living thing), possibly because I know that the locals may find my lifestyle abroad a bit 'over-the-top'. Curiosity always kills the cat. I paid and left, I decided that I am not going to revisit the restaurant. Tomorrow I am going to get some food supplies from Irakleion and that will do. Funny again how I accept my that-will-does.

I headed back to the Taverna. On the way back, the wind was blowing like crazy. The frenetic rain would hit me straight upon the face and the sound of the wild nature partying outside the room reminded me of that maniac Libyan sea waves that I would hear overnight, when Martin and I had stopped at that isolated beach at Sfakia, making our tent on the sea pebbles and rocks (that was more than 5 years ago). A similar kind of wind, rain and salt water had then damaged our temporary shelter. So did the wind when we camped on the beach on Gaudos, the memory of which can now reassure me that the Libyan sea might have been one of the most dangerous seas for seafaring in the Ancient Eastern Mediterranean.

I went to the room, went to bed and turned off the light. The hitting was on full power for the room was cold. I swear I once heard the earth growling; it must have been the noise of a distant earthquake. Tomorrow is another day. I am visiting the Irakleion museum.


picture: the blanket on the bed in room five. I loved the colours.




Copyright: Text and photography protected by M. Bealby.

Friday, June 05, 2009

His heart


His heart is what it was before;
a taste of strawberry liquor
a simple child;
moody, in silence and tears;
a fire congealed with senseless cold;
a lake of fears
a field of gold.

Text and photography by M. Bealby. All rights reserved. Title of today's picture: Xylokastro.

Thursday, August 21, 2008



...The bus stop...


This morning, on the way home, I started chatting with the old lady who was sitting next to me waiting for the bus.

'Come again?!', she repeated.

Several minutes later, as our conversation was ready to come to dead end, I yelled to everyone who was at the bus stop in a very cyclothymic way :

'I wish I could speak!'

and again:

'I wish I could speak!'

Then I apologised for my funny English accent. It was a very personal thing.

Needless to say, everybody looked at me like I was mad! Except of the poor old woman who was looking... rather sad and lost in her own thoughts. She coughed a couple of times to clear her throat, then turned to me and said:

'I know how you feel, my dear. It's fine. I just really wish that I could hear!'.



Text and photography by M. Bealby. All rights reserved. Title of today's picture: Causeway House, Lichfield UK.

Friday, June 27, 2008


...Fear not!...


There must be an exit somewhere out there.
This road is broken in half.
People are thirsty for revolutions and beating.
It's called the Grand Civilised War of the Coke era.
It comes in red and white,
to treat the wounds and open thousands more.
Someone screams in the hearing of an ambulance hooter.
The radio plays loudly the noisy songs of 69.
The kids feel the glory
of being astronauts for a day
feeding the inhospitable mud
with the footsteps of their trainers
as they run to escape.
The night will come early.
Finally, the winter will sprout
like the early bulb flowers of amaryllis.
The issue is always left untouched.
Untouched as the whispers of the timids.
Fear not! No fears!
Simply our soul's bonfires and tiers.


Text and photography by Marsia Bealby. All rights reserved. Title of photograph: bikes of Amsterdam.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008



My little story about Sheffield...


My life is changing in such a drastic way that I run after it like a fool. Everyday is a number: yesterday it was 61, this morning it was 60. My nearest and dearest make it clear that I am not a child any more and I have a number of responsibilities. Information keeps coming to me in the form of emails and letters, but everything new - I swear - I can hardly chew and metabolise.

Sheffield was a relief. It made me discover the power of myself. In fact, I had forgotten how to process the power of myself. That conference made me open my eyes again. (Uncertainly...) was it the conference itself or the fact that I was all alone for a while? I wouldn't know. It had been ages since the last time I was all alone, in a room, talking loudly to myself and pulling my own leg.

Also, I discovered a lovely place in Sheffield city-centre. I used to spend ages there looking at the trams that come and go. People who were passing by would thing that I am a villager who had never seen such a technological miracle before: the vehicle on the tram lines moving and making noise like a modern monster, with a Cyclopean eye on the front and an antenna to support itself towards the sky... (there is no gravity on the hills of Sheffield, hahaaa).

In reality, it was not the trams I was looking at. It was the tram lines. I took a picture to show you and the moment I was taking this picture I suddenly felt like Antoine de Saint Exupéry sketching a boa that had eaten an elephant...and definitely, not another hat, not another grey hat...

This is the picture. Not a great picture, I know, but for me it is a very special one. You can clearly see my dilemma in this picture. Which way to go? Right or left? After all, life is like an Y letter. We should spell it LYFE, not life... and there are so many decisions of 'right or left' we need to take during our 0 to 130 years...



As about me, at the point I had to chose right or left, I chose to follow right. It took me to the train station. I waited and waited and waited there... until I decided to catch the train to Gainsborough. It started snowing. The snowflakes had an early April sunshine trapped inside them. One of these snowflakes was wearing a white wedding dress, moving nervously here and there, up and down...

And that was my little story about Sheffield...



Text and photography by Marsia Sfakianou. All rights reserved. Pictures taken in Sheffield.

Friday, August 17, 2007



...Atlantis...


Atlantis was a mythical place. I find it hard to believe that it ever existed somewhere in the middle of the ocean. In my dreams its location is somewhere over the clouds, not underwater. It has happened to me to see weird things over there, every time I routinely travel on the airplane.

Once I imagined the cyclopean walls of Atlantis encircling huge chimneys and rectangular buildings. One of them, possibly an altar of a mysterious fertility goddess, had set at defiance all known natural phenomena. It was an immense rhomboid construction with symbols and unknown alphabets on its external metallic walls and it was flying there, over a crown of fire, sparkling towards every direction. It took me some time to finally realize that the 'chimneys' were not chimneys but tall and impressive trees, with trunks made of various metals and branches made of big nails and screws, whereas their scant foliage was made of flags and banners.

I reckon that every building had a number; something like a code, to mark it and make it special, as all buildings were exactly the same. That number-symbol was written with light rays on the flat roof of every structure.

The king of Atlantis was a landholder, cultivating his land by giving orders to thousands of ant-formed robotic subjects. Their wages were payed in promise, little papers with prays and the head on the queen on them, reassuring the robotic creatures that the divine power is with them. But there was no hope. Because...



All things are instant, but when you add moments together you create duration. Energetic fields are nothing else but joined instant moments or particles. Moreover, everything - from chakras and states of mind to practicalities and social phenomena - has two opposite ends, two poles. Love, for example, is an instant moment of survival that can be expanded either to an eternity or to an annihilation. However, at this point I have to inform you that time in Atlantis was nonexistent. Concepts such as past and future would not mean absolutely anything, as dimension of time was infinitely small. For that reason there was not day and night in the Atlantian's mind, there was no movement in his thought, even though in reality everything in Atlantis was made of movement, light and noise. Feelings were also nonexistent, as souls were dominated by the powerful kingship.

Despite the technological progress, nurtured by the common belief to the unknown goddess, that desperation of peoples' thought lead to the death of their civilization. First the poles conspired against the center and soon the center was broken into pieces. Then, poles were desolated and perished due to self-destruction. All the tall chimney treas and the rectangular buildings were lost in the condemnation of timelessness. Atlantis was a mythical place, after all.


text and photography by Marsia Sfakianou. All rights reserved. Title of photograph: pot in gray scale and color (collection: Greece, 2007).

Saturday, July 28, 2007



...Fore-tellers...


I saw them kneeling on the earth
barefoot, their mouths dry
their nudity their only clothes to wear
Prophets with long ash-grey hair
and their voice of why
spat out with their breath

Star-like dolours heart their eyes
it's time for you to compromise
regrets are flying in the air
to wash away signs of despair

Text and photograph by Marsia Sfakianou. All rights reserved
Title of photograph: grandma's house
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